Getting Recharged

I have felt as though I have been avoiding looking at my life. I have been doing things that allow me to numb out. Sleeping in, eating, playing solitaire on my phone and staying on the computer.

Rachel mentioned yesterday that she has a feeling that I'm not doing anything that is just plain enjoyable for myself. There's always the "to do" list and things that should get done. She pictures me as not being filled up...empty. As fours, we both need creativity and beauty. She's right. I'm not doing anything for myself. Nothing just for fun. I also feel empty with my God. I'm not filled up.

Knowing this, I can look at how to fill myself back up. I'm not wanting this to be a "to do" list, but rather a springboard for ideas. I know being around family and friends is something I enjoy. I enjoy meeting new people. I am also wanting to plan dinners and get togethers again.

I am missing the joy of sharing with God. I think reading something inspirational that points back to Him would be fulfilling. I haven't picked up the Bible or The Shack in a long time. Perhaps Rachel has one of the books that Sue was telling her about that I could also read. Even the Flylady pointed back to God.

I haven't signed up for an Archiver's card class in a long time. I read about a Plainfield Park District class that was about interiors and a beginners yoga or martial arts class. I know that JJC has a jewelry metalworks class that will probably start up in the fall too.

I used to go out for breakfast or coffee by myself in the morning and plan my day or journal. I'd get up early and meet friends. Perhaps that would be a good way to start my day on occasion.

I never think to go to a store or mall and just look around for fun alone or with someone. I could even go downtown to shop. Chicago is full of stores, neighborhoods, museums, boutiques and restaurants. Hey, even walking around Target or DSW would be a stretch at this point. Then there are always the designer discount stores/malls and second hand shops to explore.

To explore and walk around Lake Geneva or St. Charles/Geneva alone or with someone. Or walk along the riverwalks in Naperville or St. Charles. Or bike along the Fox River on the riverwalk.

I don't know why, but I don't even want to think about Poised for Success. Yet, when I read about my experience going there it sounds very exciting.

Even spending time in the yard or on my glider would be fun.

I think it's time for some exploration and self-discovery.