Revisiting Commitments

I have the sense that I'm just going along. I noticed today that I'm just listening to my Christian music, but I'm not being moved by it. It's like wearing colored glasses that don't let me look clearly at what is going on around me. A bit of a disconnect from "out there", except for my weight, food, work outs and cardio. I haven't felt this way all week, just this weekend. I've had a lot of alone time, perhaps too much.

I have had no desire to do the chapter "Momentum" in CYL. However, I do keep my commitment notes in there, so I pulled it out. The commitments I laid out for this year do remind me of what I'd like to put my focus on.

1. Coming from a place of love in my relationships.

-I would like to get back to learning about God's love in my life. I see Sue next week, that is
always a pleasure and learning experience. Returning to reading in God's Word and/or The Shack also sounds refreshing.
-I would like to focus on loving myself 1) through grace and forgiveness, 2) remembering that I am not perfect and 3) also not comparing myself, rather accepting myself just as I am.
-I would also like to look at getting together with Mom & Dad, Rachel and Kathy soon.
-I reached out yesterday to Janine at the gym. I don't know where this may lead, but I feel
good about it.

Well, I'm getting tired. I think this will be enough for now. As this is my number one commitment. I'd just like to focus on this one along with my weight loss.